briannaelmore

I am sooo angry with myself for falling off the wagon. In fact i’m back up to 268 but you know what!?!?! Im gonna lose it again, this time for good. My parents got back together, and now my dad is having heart problems. It’s really upsetting because i really cant lose him. I started back today on my lifestyle change. Some yogurt tomato soup and 1 and a half peices of bacon is what ive had so far. I can do this!!

 and all of yall keep up the great work!

Stepping on a scale and seeing that i lost 47 lbs, it makes me feel so great!!! It turns out working out really does work!! :] I just keep thinking if i would have started this when i was 200 lbs then i’d almost be where i wanna be right now. But i didn’t so i cant complain. I decided to eat the food i ate and there fore i caused myself to gain weight.  But now im making much better choices and its going away, quickly!!! :]

I dont have much to say today but i’ll update later. Have a great day today!!

Ok so i have to admit, I was major excited to get to cheat on my diet. My mom and i went to whataburger and i ordered a bacon cheeseburger meal with a diet dr pepper.. So i ate one fry, absolutely awful… it tasted like it had been sitting in grease for an hour. Of course it tasted the exact same as it was before when i ate it but this time it just grossed me out. And i ate 3/4 of the burger and was full. I drank 2 drinks of my soda and had hiccups galore! My gosh i had no idea that the food affected me so much.
But i am so glad i decided to wait the 2 weeks to get to eat like this though, cuz last night when i went to bed i laid my head down i thought “OH MAN FREE MEAL TOMMOROW” and ALL today all i could think of was my cheat meal… and i could barely eat any of it! But i got what i needed and i am so happy about that. I’m actually quite proud of myself for not forcing myself to eat all that food! I ate till i was comfortable and stopped!!!!
Anywho today was ok, did my mile for the day (tuesdays and fridays are one mile days) tommorow i have 2 miles to do and sunday i have off!
How was every ones friday night???

August 15th 2008- Bachollerete Party 273 lbs

Halloween 2008-240 lbs -33lbs

Me in 2007 @ 150 lbs, I will be there again!!

So there are some more before and after pics! I can’t wait to get more taken i will definantly keep it up. Tommorow is my cheat meal I am not going to have a full cheat day yet but I am going to eat healthy all tommorow and then tommorow night I am going to have nachos with a diet soda!! I can’t wait.
I weighed myself today and i way 234 lbs!! WOOOO HOOO! I was so scared to weigh in tomorrow and of course i couldn’t wait till tommorow so i weighed myself tonight and i stood on the scale and i told my sister in law, just tell me what it says be honest. And she goes “OH MAN” at that point i’m thinking i gained weight, she said “234″ yayyy! And she wieghed and she’s at 235 hah we are at the same weight! She is doing so well, and i am so so proud of her! We are helping eachother out on this thing. I hate even calling it a diet, it’s a change in life style. Am i going to go back to eating what i ate before? No.. i certainly will not. And i can guaruntee that.

How is every ones journey going???

Although i am sick, i have a bad sinus infection!!! I am doin really well on my diet and work is going okay. I really can’t wait to weigh myself this friday! I hope it has gone down at least 5 lbs!! Even 2 lbs would be amazing… But what really bums me out is that i really cant see that im losing any weight… i want to start seeing these results i want to see me get SKINNY!!!
OH LORD I HOPE I START SEEING THESE RESULTS SOON! Cuz to myself i look just as big as before!!

-Bri

I want to go to the beach in a bikini. I want to ride rides at six flags and not feel like im squished, I want to WANT to go clothes shopping, I want to wear sexy lingere and FEEL sexy, and lastly… I DONT WANT TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK!
All these things keep me going every single day, which made me realize…. this diet is completely selfish from other peoples point of view. It is not for my husband, not for my friends, it is for me… and you know what????
I’m glad for once in my life, IM BEING SELFISH!! I am taking care of my body, so that i will look and feel better. And im completely okay with that.
I still take care of everyone else i havnt completely forgotten about people but for once i can say, my body is first priority. It has to be at this point in my life, i want to live a long happy life with my husband, and be able to travel, and be able to breath when i go on vacation on walk around, and when i have children i want to be able to run and play with them, i dont wanna be a couch potato mom.

I know this sounds terrible, but the only way to really succeed in a diet i’ve found…

is not to tell yourself your gonna fit in
not to say oh its for him/her
in the end it will be because, Oh i will feel better… and a lot of things will fall into place with it!!!!

QUESTION

WHAT IS THE FIRST THING EVERYONE WANTS TO DO WHEN THEY HIT THERE GOAL WEIGHT [NO LIMITS]

So my mom and dad just recently decided to split up, and it’s been about 4 weeks that they havn’t been together.
So last night i went to a halloween party so that my mom would go [and my dad asked me if i could get her to go] and so we went and my mom started to feel really uncomfortable, so she went home and then when she walked out of the house she was in tears, and i asked her what was wrong and she said… “He promised me there wouldn’t be any drama” [and of course my dad had been drinking which is stupid in the first place cuz he knew this was going to be an emotionally trying time]. So after she left i saw him crying and tried to stay as far away from him as possible [ i know what yall are thinking that it’s crappy but my dad likes to suck me right into the middle of it] And then he walks up to me and says can we talk and i try to tell him i don’t want to right now, and that it’s not an appropriate time, and he starts saying “Why don’t you love me like you love your mom” and “You’re the missing link in this marriage you can fix this marriage” Putting me right smack dab in the middle of it! And it was just constant “I cant live anymore”
It’s crap that he says that to me any way [back ground info- I tried to commit suicide when i was 17 due to a rape that happened to me when i was 14] So suicide hits way too close to home for me. And while i do love my father, this is just too much for me. I keep telling him, Dad…stop talking about it to me. I love the fact that he is talking about it to other people, but not to me. It might sound selfish but i’m their daughter not their marriage counselor. I want to have my parents, and im willing to listen a little bit but he fishes for information out of me and he asks me personal things about my mom, and first off, he shouldn’t be doing that… and second off it’s not my place to tell personal business.
And the fact that he is telling me that im the one that is going to fix this marriage hurts, because i know that I cant fix it. The only reason i spend time with my mom is because she DOES NOT talk about it what so ever. She will slip up and say something and right away she’s like, “Oh im really sorry, that’s not something i should discuss with you”

Im just tired of playing mediator and counselor.
Im tired of being told i can fix something thats already broken.
UGHHHH

Anywho on a positive note i was in my bed room when the door bell rang this morning and all i had on was little booty shorts and i was like OH CRAP so i rushed to find some jeans and i did and slipped them on and then i was like WAIT A MINUTE … so it was my husband at the door and i was like babe, tell me what size pants these are, he goes “20’s” and i was SO SO HAPPY!!! WOOO! I’ve lost a pant’s size. They wouldn’t even button a month ago. J is so supportive like as soon as he said 20 he got the biggest grin on his face and said “You used to wear 22’s W” He said he’s very proud and gave me a hug :]

So that kind of made things a little better.

I have some costume pics from last night, I was a sexy robyn da hood. And I have a full body picture but i can definantly tell i’ve lost weight lol.

Okay so this is NOT a lie, i’m not just saying this, so yall all have to believe me. I weighed 257 friday of last week… and i weighed myself on halloween to see if i have reached my goal of 20 lbs by halloween…. I got on the scale… It said 240! So it was me by myself at first and my mom was in the other room. So to double check i got back on the scale [same scale that told me 257 three times last week] and boingggg (thats the sound of the scale when it’s moving to its numbers lol) 240 lbs! I still did not believe it, so I litterally SCREAMED for my mom… My mom being herself of course came into the room panicing and was like “WHAT!?!?!” and i said “I’m gonna stand completely still and i need you to tell me what that scale says, and she was like “ok…[it moved] two hundred and forty lbs” i couldn’t take it, I started BAWLING! i was like “oh my god mom, I made my first goal, I did it!!!” She hugged me started crying and said “I’ve never been more proud of you” She stepped on the scale to make sure it was accurate and it went straight to 105 and she was like “Yupp it’s right.” [My mom is tiny, We are polar opposites haha] i just think it’s insane that i lost THAT much weight when i have been eating 1500 cals to 2000 cals a day, walking 2 miles a day… nothing too strenuous.
But i’m thinking of it this way… I have walked 2 miles a day for a week, I have had NO soda, not even diet, and i have stayed under 2000 calories a day.
I used to… Sit on my ass all day, drank about 4 sodas a day, and ate about 10,000 calories a day, maybe the sudden drop is just the initial weight loss. In no way do i think it’s always gonna be like this, but this first weigh in since i got back on my diet… Now that was awesome!
And i know this all sounds like bull honky but this is the complete and absolute truth, I’m still in shock about it. if 17 lbs came off my body i want to know where all it went lol. [Maybe to my husband haha]
My sister and law and i were talking about how when we lose weight we dont see it, i honestly believe im gonna be 140 lbs and still see myself the way i am now. I know i’ll be in different sized clothes and everything else but I just am scared i still wont be happy with myself.
I noticed last night that i actually have lost weight cuz when i used to watch movies [and i know this sounds gross] i felt like my face fat and boobs were strangeling me (even sitting up) and i was sitting there and realized how much more okay i felt, i wasn’t sweating perfusly for no known reason other than my body fat was making me too hot. I wasnt breathing real heavy to catch my breath, I was sitting there… no face fat strangeling me [i still have face fat but its no longer as bad] i felt i could breath, and that i was ok.
And that amazing feeling, is only after 33 lbs, I still have 100 left to lose!! I bet that will be the most amazing feeling to not feel like im going to die everytime i run up stairs, to be able to buckle in comfortably into a six flags ride, to wear cute clothes instead of jeans and tshirts all the time!!
I CANNOT WAIT and i have never been so fired up in my life!!

Yeap, you heard right this once DDD girl is now in a C… I don’t know what happened, but if this is God’s idea of a joke… it’s definantly not funny! Now I’m starting to think all 16 of my lbs came out of my tata’s. Ah well i knew it was gonna come off eventually i just didn’t think it would be so sudden. Maybe it was happening slowly and it just finally hit me? I don’t know. All i know is that I am oh so excited to be close to hitting that 20 lbs mark!! It was supposed to be by halloween but i figure, 16 lbs is a lot of weight.. . .. no need to get down on the fact that i didn’t lose 4 more! It is 16 less than i needed to lose before!
I have been looking at everyones pages and everyone is doing so well on their diets!! I applaud yall! I know it can be so frusterating sometimes, I know I feel like I am seeing no difference in my body and the scales are just lying to me. I think God is playing a dirty trick on me by taking my boobs and leaving everything else just the way it was before. ;]
Jen and I got up and walked at 8 am this morning, and let me tell ya… that first mile was brutal haha. And then the second mile started to be a little less intense. I was about ready to give up after the first mile and then Jen and I started talking about what we wanted to wear and what we wanted to acheive and all my energy came back full force! I was like, YEAH IM GONNA DO THIS!! WOO!
And I am, ALL OF US are going to do this!
We are going to kick ass and look hot while doing it!! [haha i think i made that up… and i like it]

Have a great weekend yall!!

-Bri

 I went into work today at 8 30 am and when i thought i was going to have to come back after my lunch break my boss was like “Bri take the day off” and i was like SUHWEET! I have been working my badonkadonk off there [i work at a day care] and so to only work a half day is AWESOME! So as soon as i got off i called my sister in law and asked her if she wanted to go walking with me [I was soo fired up to go get some excercise today] and so OF COURSE she said yes and we went up to the nearest trails and walked 2 miles, and i’m probably gonna go back tonight and walk two or three more miles! I love living with my in laws cuz they live so close to the trails that there is absolutely no excuse not to go!
So after Jen in I walked two miles we went to Pei Wei cuz we had 2 free cool lettuce and shredded chicken wrap coupons and to my surprise one WHOLE serving was only 250 cals! And it was so good, I was kind of weary about wrapping something in lettuce and eating it but oh man i can’t wait to get paid so we can go eat there again!
James and I have to finish moving tonight since he isn’t working at his second job and he just told me that after we do that he is going to go walk with me! WOO HOO! I just love going walking with him cuz it’s nice quiet alone time and we can get away from all our struggles in life and just enjoy the cool air! I am so happy that he is home it makes this whole diet process easier! [Except for the fact that he works at PAPA JOHNS] hah. Any who how is everyones diet process going!!